Confused.

adj.
Being unable to think with clarity or act with understanding and intelligence.
(Thank you, dictionary.com)

Yeup. This word basically sums up how I have been feeling lately. This whole college thing is really starting to bug me. I regret not taking the time in high school to think more about life after high school, or to check out some colleges. Like always, I procrastinated and said "Oh, I have 4 years to figure that out." "Oh, I have 3 years to figure that out." "College??? I have 2 years to figure that out!" "Not a problem...still gotta year to figure out what in the world I'm going to do with my life." And now...10 months after graudation, I sit and wonder why I didn't put any thought into this before. I know I am supposed to be in Hibbing right now, because the Lord has spoke through people for me, but I dunno...I guess I just feel doubt a lot of times. Not doubt that it's the Lord's doing, but just think that there is a better world out there for me elsewhere. Here I am with no idea of what I want to major in. And when I say no idea, I mean it. I don't know what kind of field I want to go to, what kind of schooling I should go to, or anything. One day I'm for sure staying in Hibbing, and the next I think "North Central here I come!" But yeah....I don't know....just kinda confused. Why must this all be so difficult?! I would really love to take a year off, but I'm not working that hard as it is, and I think I'd just continue to get even more lazy. Plus, my mom thinks that's a bad idea. So I dunno...will you guys maybe slip in a prayer sometime this week for me? I've been feelin' a little bummed out about it. Don't think you have to make it your #1 priority or anything, but maybe right before a meal or something say "...and please knock some sense into Amber. Amen." I'd greatly appreciate it.